So I am a little worried.  Last year in August I began the long process of losing weight.  I went in to it full force.  I cut out all sweets and did major portion control.  I counted calories like crazy.  From August to December, I lost 60 pounds.  That’s freakin’ great!  Bad part is then came the holidays.  I behaved myself for Thanksgiving, I even made a low fat/low calorie apple pie that I got the recipe from a Biggest Loser cookbook.

Then Christmas came and I decided to just enjoy myself.  We made a large breakfast feast.  No portion control for me.  All the candy and sweets, WOW!  I told myself I would get back on the wagon for the new year.  I mean I even stopped working out.  See the problem is I hit a plateau the last month, Nov-Dec.  I was very discouraged.  I was working out and eating right and saw no results.

Well the beginning of the year didn’t start like I wanted.  I wasn’t working out like I had been and I wasn’t keeping up with portion control.  So from January-March, I gained back about 13 pounds.  Then I got pregnant.  I wanted to get pregnant, it was planned.  Now this pregnancy seems to be between Bubby and Bel’s pregnancies.  I haven’t gotten sick but I feel like utter shit.  I feel that I have to eat often to keep from getting sick.  It seems like every hour I have to munch on something.  I went to the store the other day and bought  a bunch of fruit to try and help but I keep craving sweets.  I have however, since getting pregnant been drinking a lot more water.  So I foresee gaining some weight over the next 8 months, aside from baby weight.  Maybe once my “morning sickness” months pass I need to focus on taking walks and such to try and stay active.

This is however, my last baby, so January 2010 I can focus on getting in to shape, being healthy and losing weight.

So I am not really happy with USPS and UPS right now.  I started my ebay store about a month ago and I have sold several dozen things.  It wasn’t until we moved to this new house that a few things were arriving all mangled.  Not sure if my mail carrier is pissed they have to come to my door to get the package or if it is because it seems I have several carriers for my area….maybe they are new.  I just don’t know but it is costing me money and I’m not happy.

As far as UPS, my mom sent me a framed picture, I think it is an 11×14.  The UPS tracking said it was supposed to get to me on Friday.  It wasn’t until Tuesday that I received it.  Well on Monday my mom said that according to the tracking, it said the package was damaged.

My mom makes me a cross stitch picture with my children’s birth info and then spends good money to have it professionally framed.  Well when I got the picture on Tuesday, the frame was missing.  Apparently it broke in transit and then the whole package had to be opened, all the glass removed and then resealed.  My mom has taken her items to the same packing company every time she sends me something and we have never had a problem.  Not only did the glass get broken but the frame was chipped and the mat frame was all scratched up.

So she calls UPS to complain and file a claim and they say it is the shippers fault for not packaging it correctly.  Now it is in slightly a different box then it normally is but the box has tape all over it that says, “Fragile handle with care” and there was Styrofoam in the box.  So I guess it is going to be a battle to get someone to pay for the damage.

I don’t know why my stuff keeps getting damaged.  Is it bad luck or the package handlers, mail carriers………what is it?

No really what was I thinking?  This pregnancy is kicking my ass!!!  There is a good and a bad to this whole thing.  I think the lil ones keep me going, to keep me from thinking about how much I feel like crap.  On the other hand, all I want to do sometimes is just sleep.

Since Thursday we have had kind of a busy week.  Nicki’s birthday was Thursday.  Tony had to work until 2pm.  He didn’t get to leave until 2:30 and the I told him about a job fair going on.  He didn’t have any clean “job interview” clothes on him so he had to drive all the way home (40 min drive, which sucked because the job fair was only about 5 min from his work).  He came home, we all got ready and loaded the kids up.  Nicki ended up hanging out with my brother, he came over to give her the birthday present.  We went to the job fair, he was in and out in about 15 min, then we ran some errands.  I had to get Nicki her presents.  We got home and almost immediately turned around and went to dinner.  We chose Chili’s and we had a great time.  Tony was so tired from working so much that he crashed at 10pm.  Thankfully his one day off for the week was Friday because that was his birthday.  Happy Birthday Tony!

Friday was pretty relaxed for the first part of the day.  Tony worked in the garage.  We had a bit of a problem with my washer, we thought it had broken and was going to have to replace it but it was just a belt.  We got the replacement belt and Tony spent about an hour fixing it.  Now it works great.  Then when Nicki got home from school, we had to run some errands.  She was having a sleep over for her birthday and we had to get all the junk food.  We ran to Walmart , got some candy, chips and soda.  I also had to pick up a Leapster 2 game for my niece, her birthday was April 22.  Ok on a real quick side note, how crazy is this……My brother and I were both born on the 23rd of the month (him in June and me in Sept) my daughter was born on April 23 and 8 yrs later his daughter was almost born on April 23.  She was born 29 min before and that was only because her mother had to have a c-section.  WEIRD!

Ok, anyways……After Walmart, we had to pick up both girls that were spending the night.  We ordered some pizza and then at around 9:30pm I took the girls to see 17 again.  It didn’t even let out until midnight.  My pregnant ass was SO ready for bed.

The next day, I woke got the girls some breakfast.  Since my brother wanted us to come by and have cake for his daughter’s birthday, I had to drive Tony to work (we still only have one car)

So here is how the day went, noon I drove Tony to work, it took just over an hour to get there and back.  Then I took both girls home that spent the night.  We then proceeded to my brother’s house which is 35 min away.  By this time I had been driving for about 2 hours.  We got to my brother’s house and I pretty much crashed on the couch.  All the kids played, we stayed for about 3 hours.

Well we had rushed out of the house to take Tony to work and he forgot his work keys.  So after my brother’s I had to drive back to Tony’s work (40 min drive) and then back home.  We got home around 7:30/8.  Then around midnight I had to drive back to his work to pick him up.  WOW!  What a day and mostly spent driving.  Needless to say Sunday all I wanted to do was sleep.  Which I was able to do since Nicki was home.

I really have just felt like such crap the last week or so.  I can’t wait until the “morning sickness” phase is over.  Only another couple months for me. 

Sometimes I just think cleaning is such a waste.  Especially with 3 kids and a boyfriend.  Every night we try and pick up the toys and I try and mop and vacuum often.  The area the kids play in are both tile and carpet.

I do a load of dishes every night, puck up dirty clothes and other crap on the floor.  1sth thing in the morning, the toys are dumped all over, dishes are already piled in the sink, dirty clothes have managed to get on the floor and crap is all over.  What’s the point right?

Well I am pretty annoyed because I bought what I thought was the best buy, for a vacuum.  It was cheap but I thought it was just because it was a Sam’s Club price.  It was bagless which I like and it was light……and I liked the color.  lol

Well a few short weeks after having it, the roller broke, which is a $20 replacement.  Now, since I have replaced that, the roller hasn’t worked the same.  It keeps getting jammed and then the vacuum starts to smoke and smell.  I just don’t see the point in spending a lot of money on a vacuum.  The problem, is that I don’t know how to fix the one I have.  I may end up having to spend more money on another one.

Anyways, I just don’t like cleaning.  Maybe that is all it is……I like things clean but I don’t like to have to do the work.  lol

12 yrs and 9 months ago, my life changed.  That was one of the happiest days.  I found out I was pregnant with Nicki.  I was 18 yrs old and not married.  A lot of emotions and things took place in those first couple months after finding out.  9 months later Lorena Nicole entered the world.  My life would forever be better.  Nicki and I have been through a lot over the last 12 yrs but to this day we have always been there for each other.  I wouldn’t change anything that has happened in my life for anything.  I truly believe it all happened for a reason.

Nicki has always been a kind and considerate little girl who is growing up to be a beautiful little lady.  I cannot wait to see her through her next 12 yrs and the many, many more after that.  I just can’t believe how fast she is growing  up.  I mean she is wearing under wire bras and worries about her looks, wears makeup and talks on a cell phone.  What happened to my lil chubby baby?

Anyways, Happy 12th Birthday Nicki!

I do love a sunny day but I must admit I LOVE rainy days.  Rain to me is extremely soothing.  It makes me really relaxed.  Here is Florida it has been sunny and hot a lot lately.  Well today is gloomy and it just started to rain.  My flowers and grass really need it.  Tony, Nicki and I have taken to gardening as a family project.  We are growing vegetables and sunflowers.  OMGoodness the sunflowers have just exploded, in a few short weeks they have just gotten huge.  I will try and take a picture in the next couple days.  Our tomato plants are also doing well.  My pineapple is almost ripe.  Can’t wait to cut it open and eat it.  I have waited 2 yrs.

On to other topics.  WHAT was I thinking getting pregnant again, LOL!  I forgot how much my last 2 pregnancies sucked!  Nicki’s pregnancy was a breeze but Bubby and Isabel…..OMGoodness.  One of the signs that told me I might be pregnant was the nasty belly burn I get.  I say belly because it’s not the normal heartburn.  It BURNS in my belly.  I get a mild case of it when I am not pregnant but when I am pregnant it is intense.  So bad it makes me want to curl up in a ball and stay like that until it passes.  Or it makes me throw up.  It happened one time when I was pregnant with Bubby, I had something for dinner and it gave me the MOST HORRIBLE heartburn EVER.  Ever since then it seems to have moved to my belly.  I can get it on an empty stomach.  I asked my doctor when I was pregnant with Bel and she pretty much told me there was nothing she could do.  When I see the doctor this time around (it will be a different doctor) I will see what they have to say.

Morning sickness seems to get worse.  I have not actually thrown up yet but the nausea is stronger.  I try to do everything in my power to just stop and relax to keep myself from getting sick.  Once I start I am afraid I will always get sick.  Just talking about it is making my stomach churn.

My lil ones are plotting against me.  I swear they are working together.  As Bel was distracting me on one side of me trying to get my coffee, Bubby was on the other side of me trying to get my bagel this morning.  I had to call Tony in to help.  LOL!  When I tried to stop the bagel thief, the coffee critter was trying to knock it over.

I love having babies and I wouldn’t trade it for the world.  I can sacrifice my happiness for 10 months, to be able to have a beautiful baby.  As I stated before, I will be getting my tubes tied after this one so I will treasure the time I do have being pregnant.

Anyways, I am off to put the kids to nap so maybe I can get a nap too.

I love shoes, like most women do.  But I don’t like all kinds of shoes, I don’t like heels or basically any closed toed shoe, it’s not for me.  When I lived in Illinois and we had seasons I would wear sneakers and boots, hardly ever wore sandals.

For the past 6 yrs that I have been in Florida, you will probably never see me in anything but sandals.  Now when I go to a shoe store, I want to buy all the shoes in the store but I will only wear sandals.  When we lived our short time in Nevada and I worked for a bank, I had to wear close toed shoes and stockings.  It SUCKED!

I need new sandals.  I came across this site that has these great Beautifeel shoes, lots of sandals.  I usually buy my sandals from Payless or something but they always wear out or fall apart after only having them a short time.  Or they are just not very comfortable, hard soles.  Maybe I should spend a little more money and get some good quality shoes.

I think I will just have to treat myself to a new pair of shoes.