I USED to love watching Jon and Kate plus 8.  I enjoyed watching how parents took care of multiples.  I enjoyed seeing how they dealt with day to day obstacles.  I recorded every week. 

Then when the news came out that they were splitting, I had mixed emotions.  I felt bad for the kids, I felt bad for Kate….I wasn’t sure how I felt about Jon.  Did he cheat?  How could he fall in love so fast?  How could he show his new relationship public so soon after the divorce?

I tried to continue to watch episodes but I just got so disgusted by all of it.  These 2 people are living the celebrity life because they are having their lives documented on how to care for 2 sets of multiples.  Yet these people are letting babysitters and nannies care for their kids a majority of the time while they are off doing interviews and guest hosting on talk shows and doing book signings or partying in Vegas or skiing or off with a new girlfriend. 

They are letting other people raise their kids while they are off speaking about how difficult it is raising so many children.  I respect the Duggars WAY more than Jon and Kate.  The Duggars have 18 kids with one on the way.  Their shows are about how they take care of their kids.  No one else is caring for them.  They shop at Goodwill and discounted food stores.  They would make enough money to support their family without TLC. 

Jon and Kate claim they couldn’t care for their kids without TLC.  I just don’t feel they deserve celebrity status.  They aren’t talented like actors/actress’.  I feel they make money exploiting their children and telling their “whoa is me” stories.  Oh poor Kate, Jon cheated and left me…..”well Kate you are a bitch”.  I don’t condone cheating but I could see on a weekly basis that the relationship couldn’t possibly last with the way she talked to and treated Jon.  Oh what a jerk Jon is, he is dating and in love with someone else.  He is partying in Vegas and surrounded by beautiful babes in bikinis.  While I don’t believe those are great choices when you are a parent and in the news where your kids may see it’s not like he has the kids with him.  He is legally divorced.  Who knows how long he was not in love with Kate prior to the divorce.  I honestly don’t know how he stayed with her as long as he did. 

My kids are just as interesting as their kids are if not more interesting.  We go through daily struggles supporting our family.  We may only have 3 1/2 kids but we are just average people just like they are.  I just don’t get how these people have so much press.  The Duggars are good people, they help their community, they home-school their kids and they volunteer. 

What sparked these thoughts is when I saw Kate as a guest host on The View this morning.  95% of the time she just sat there and nodded and rolled her eyes,  while a babysitter was probably at home taking care of the kids.

I just don’t see why this family even deserves all that they have.

Lil Tony got sick yesterday with a cold.  He has a runny nose and I can tell he is just miserable.  He was pretty calm most of yesterday.  He still played a little but he sat on my lap cuddling most of the day.  I hoped that I wouldn’t get sick too but later in the day yesterday I started to feel achy.  I woke up today with a stuffy nose.  I feel like crap.  I should have expected to get sick, Lil Tony has been sneezing all over me, snuggled up to me and breathing all over me.  I hope I get better soon, on top of being miserable pregnant now I have an achy cold too.  Nicki is at school and Tony won’t be off for a couple more days.  Me, all alone with the kids feeling rough. 

Well gotta go, Lil Tony is having a nervous breakdown because his nose is dripping. 

We had another get together with our newly made friends.  I haven’t had a chance to post but we got together a couple days ago.  We made friends with 2 couples but only one was able to get together.  Since we went to their house last time, we offered to have them over to our house.

The only crappy thing was that Tony had to work in the morning at 4am.  That meant he would have to get up at 2:30 in order to get to work on time.  They came over after the kids got out of school so it was about 5pm.  We hung out, the kids played and the adults got to talk.  It was great.  We found out that night that we have a lot in common.  From life in general to tv shows that we watch.  It has been so hard since Tony and I got together to find people that we could all hang out with.  Either they didn’t have kids or they weren’t in a relationship.  We wanted to find couples kind of in the same place in life that we are.  Ya know, kids and a family and couples that had a good relationship.  We have found couples that have had relationship problems and sometimes that makes it difficult to have a good time when we are together. 

So the sad part that is in my head is the couple lives in the same town as us only about 5 min away.  Just like Tony, his friend has to drive a good hour to get to work.  They both work for the same company, different locations.  Once they finish their training, they are typically moved to a more permanent store where they are eventually (in the next couple months) promoted to department manager.  So I worry that Tony’s friend will get transferred to a store even further away than he already drives and they will end up moving closer.  If they move farther away, the less often or likely we will be able to get together on a whim.

It seems so cheesy but it is just great that we finally found people with kids that we enjoy hanging out with.  Hopefully all will work out and they won’t move.

I think I have mentioned this recently but I am excited because Tony is supposed to be promoted in the next couple months.  I just can’t wait for this to happen.  It will mean a pay increase.  Right now we are truly living check to check.  Not to say we won’t be budgeting our money when he gets the raise but we will have money left over at the end of the month. 

Tony needs to get his car fixed, we will have another baby in the house around that time, we want to save among other things.  Tony also has benefits at his job.  We would really like to look in to starting a 401k and medical insurance. 

I am really thankful that his job is not dangerous or very stressful anymore.  He needs to get medical insurance and go to a doctor.  Heart problems run in the family.  I am not sure that we can afford him out of work and living on social security disability.  I would definitely need to get a job and I certainly would not make any where near what he makes.  Unfortunately that is the one thing that is a little pricey, medical insurance with his work even just for employee is expensive.  I really do think he needs to get in to get checked out. 

Even with the promotion though he will only have to work 44 hrs a week, which is 22 hours a week less than his last job and since he will still get paid hourly, he will get paid for the OT.  That is awesome.  PLUS, twice a year he will get a bonus based on the stores profitability and that could mean a substantial amount.  YIPPEE! 

I really think that things are finally going in the right direction.  He is happy at his job and he gets to spend so much more time at home.  We are living a little slim right now but we are happy and I think that is important.

When I was talking to my mom today I realized that I only have about 13 weeks left in this pregnancy.  I have thought about it but it never really sunk in.  13 weeks is going to come and go so fast.  I am so ready to get this over with.  I am tired of feeling like shit.  I am tired of being tired.  I am tired of back pains and body pains.  I am tired of having no energy.  I am tired of heart burn and constipation…lol.  Crap, I’m just tired. 

I am ready to get in to shape, work out, get some energy back and start feeling like a mother and a homemaker.  I feel bad for Tony, he works and still comes home and cooks dinner.  Some days I do but I just usually don’t feel good.  Nicki helps out a lot with cleaning up around the house.  The only thing I do and no one else is the laundry. 

I have been doing a lot of thinking about what approach I am going to take in order to get back in shape.  Of the 60 lbs I lost I have probably gained back 45.  Very depressing.  There is a gym down the street that is an all women’s gym which I am pretty interested in going to.  They have personal trainers and a program that makes you check in weekly for weigh-ins.  They have a nutritionist to help with food planning and work out planning.  All of which cost money so I am contemplating what will help me better at first. 

I have also been doing my research on possible diet pills I can take.  I really don’t know if I want any additional help but if I find just the right one, it may be worth it.  I was reading testoripped reviews and I am not sure that is the one for me.  I am just not sure what I need to do, I do think I need a professional to help me through it.  When I was doing it before, Tony was a big help but I was getting discouraged all too often.  When I would hit a plateau for a week or two and I wouldn’t know what to do to get out of it.   

Well I will keep looking in to it.  Researching my possibilities, figuring out how much I can afford on a monthly basis.

For the last week or so I have been letting Tony sleep in, he has been on the closing shift and not getting much sleep.  Since I let him sleep in we usually don’t eat breakfast until later in the morning.  It has been great having him home more, when he has off or on the closing shift we eat homemade breakfasts. Pancakes, eggs, grits, bacon, biscuits and gravy…. not all at the same time but those are some of the things we have, tasty. 

Well since we have not been eating until later my system is all out of whack, my body starts to feel really ill.  I start to shake and my heart starts racing, it almost feels like when I am taking diet pills with the ephedrine.  I thought it was because of the things I was eating for breakfast until this morning when I felt that way before I even ate. 

It takes some time after I eat to stop feeling so crappy.  I never noticed feeling that way when we would eat by like 9 but we have been eating closer to 11 and my body is not happy.  I think we will need to fix that going forward because I hate that feeling.

I sure did enjoy the 2-3 days we had of cold(er) weather.  Sleeping at night was so comfortable with 45 degree temps.  Unfortunately this whole week it will be back in the 80′s.  Being pregnant doesn’t help, I am warm all the time and then to have it hot outside sucks even more.  We had to put our air back on….SUCKS! 

What I did realize is that we all need to prepare for the fall/winter months.  We are still stocked with summer type clothes and I just don’t think tank tops, shorts and flip flops will work in the snow. 

I will need to get jackets and pants and long sleeve shirts.  I am not sure how I feel about the Ugg shoes but I need to get something like that for me and the kids.  This is going to be one expensive shopping trip and I am not looking forward to it.  But I gotta do what I gotta do!