If there is even anyone out there that reads my blog and cares, here I go talking about weight loss again.  LOL!

This is my blog and it is for me to document and encourage myself to keep pushing forward.  Some days I want to give up, well not literally but I get frustrated.  I just want to eat, not to care….wish I was slender so I never had to count calories or be so damn conscious of my weight and what foods go in my mouth.  I am fat and the fat genes unfortunately run in my family.  I don’t want to be fat anymore.  I want to walk in a store and look and the cute clothes.  I want to be able to fit in some of the smaller clothes I have in my closets.  I am tired of this struggle I have to go through.  I let myself go over the last 13 yrs.  I gained weight and never put the time and effort in to losing it.  I am disappointed in myself. 

I am frustrated that I can’t figure out what I should be doing.  Should I be eating more? Less?  Working out more?  Lifting more weights?  Am I more active than I give myself credit for?  Week after week I hit that scale on Sunday night and HOPE that it gives me good numbers.  Week after week I am fluctuating……then have a great week or too…..then fluctuate for a week or two.  I am 38 pounds away from my goal.  I was truckin’ right along and then a few weeks ago hit a plateau that I just can’t seem to get past. 

Do I get some weight loss products or continue doing it all natural.  Why does this have to be so complex?  Why am I starting to get more and more hungry?  On my low calorie days I just don’t feel I am getting enough, I am craving more sweets, I find myself wanting to snack more……….

What’s a fat girl to do?

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