When I was younger I had nice skin, nice hair, I was skinnier, and I just had nicer features.  LOL!!  Over the years those features have gone to shit.   I guess with my aging I should think about aging cremes and taking care of my skin.  I have given it a lot of thought and I think I might sign up for the gym again.  The winter is coming which means no chance at all to go for walks or anything.  My body is getting old and overweight.  My body aches and has lots of pains.  I need to do something.  It seems like there are serums and ointments for everything.  Heck I even saw one the other day for eyelash growth serums.  What??  LOL!!

Anywho, I have never really been in to ointments, creme, makeup, etc but I guess if I don’t want to age horribly then I need to do something about it now.

I used to have acne in high school and I hated it.  I never found a product I liked and even to this day I end up just using regular soap.  I don’t break out anywhere near what I did long ago but I do have an occasional break out, mostly during that time of the month.

This may be TMI but the other day I broke out, just in one spot.  I don’t know what it was from because it wasn’t that time of the month but it lasted like a whole week.  I thought about getting some sort of adult acne treatment because I hate when that happens, but it does seem to happen so rare that I would hate to spend money.

I usually don’t wear much makeup, I don’t buy expensive face cleansers or hair products.  I just don’t see that as a priority financially.  I just wish I could find one mildly inexpensive product that I could use, that would work.

So I have been on this kick that I want to take better care of myself and my skin and my body.  I want to not let my facial skin start “looking old”.  I had some friends from Facebook when we first got in touch after 15 yrs say that I still look the same.  Over the last 3 yrs however, I feel I have aged.  3 kids will do that.  LOL!  I want to get a skin care regimen going.  I did some online searches last night for skin care products that would work, I also did some searches for the best colon cleansing pills.  LOL!  Yeah I know TMI, but ya know that feeling that you are just full.  That is how I feel a lot.

I think I will start with the skin care products though, I have never cleansed my colon and that seems a bit scary.  Will I be on the toilet all day?

LOL!  Maybe my problem is I need a good colon cleansing.  Yeah I know, sounds funny but I really have a hard time with that.  If this is TMI then you can stop reading now.  LOL!

Most “normal” people have a bowel movement daily.  I have one maybe two times a week.  Even when I ate “healthy” it didn’t change that.  It is kinda funny because Tony always tells me about how “productive” he was in the bathroom and I feel very unsatisfied when I get out.  Do I need to take some daily pills or just get a colon cleanse.  What I know is I could use a good flushin’!  LOL!

**ok so this may be TMI for some people but for others who may have had this done maybe I could get some feedback as to whether it’s normal**

It’s been almost 6 weeks since I had baby Max and I also had my tubes tied.  We decided to not have any more children and the best thing to do was tie my tubes.  I was an emotional and tough decision but it was the right thing to do. 

Thankfully I go to my doctor on Monday for my 6 week check up and I will ask him but it has been like I have had my “monthly friend” every day for the last 6 weeks.  I had a c-section.  I know when I had Nicki (which was natural) that it would be somewhat normal to bleed for that long but with a c-section I don’t remember it being so long.  The weird part is I may go a couple days without and then a day with and so on.  I don’t feel bloated and there is no cramping. 

I mean I hate it enough once a month when I would get my menstrual cycle but to have it almost non-stop for 6 weeks it’s annoying.  I am also going to tell him that I stopped taking my prenatal vitamins.  I am sure that has nothing to do with it but he wanted me to keep taking them for a while. 

I just wish it would stop, I hope at least the doctor can tell me it’s normal.

For the last week or so I have been letting Tony sleep in, he has been on the closing shift and not getting much sleep.  Since I let him sleep in we usually don’t eat breakfast until later in the morning.  It has been great having him home more, when he has off or on the closing shift we eat homemade breakfasts. Pancakes, eggs, grits, bacon, biscuits and gravy…. not all at the same time but those are some of the things we have, tasty. 

Well since we have not been eating until later my system is all out of whack, my body starts to feel really ill.  I start to shake and my heart starts racing, it almost feels like when I am taking diet pills with the ephedrine.  I thought it was because of the things I was eating for breakfast until this morning when I felt that way before I even ate. 

It takes some time after I eat to stop feeling so crappy.  I never noticed feeling that way when we would eat by like 9 but we have been eating closer to 11 and my body is not happy.  I think we will need to fix that going forward because I hate that feeling.

I haven’t really posted about this lately and that is only because I kinda “relapsed” if you will.  Back in August of last year I set out to lose weight and get in shape.  I told myself I wanted to hit my final goal by Jan 2010.  I know that seems like a long time but I had gained 60lbs with both lil ones and I was in need of losing weight before I even had kids.

I dedicated and motivated.  I started off moderate and that was only because I was so out of shape and still recovering from a c-section.  Over a very short period of time, I think a month, I became really strong and was able to turn up my intensity.

I went in to the “weight loss” idea FULL FORCE.  I didn’t eat sweets, I logged all my food, counted calories to a “T” and worked out every day.  Maybe I sabotaged myself by doing things that way.  I CRAVED sweets.  It was really difficult around the holidays to stay on track.  For Thanksgiving, I was still trying.  I made sure I didn’t over do it, I even made a low-fat/calorie apple pie.  I love apple pie and that was really hard.  I missed having the traditional pie.  By Christmas, I think I was just over worked and burned out.

For the last few weeks in December, i was no longer counting calories, the week of Christmas I wasn’t even working out.  As of this point, however, I had lost 60lbs.  I was about halfway to my goal.

I thought I was going to get back on track for the New Year and I did go workout on occasion but I wasn’t watching what I ate or counting calories.  I mean I ate my 6 small meals and ate in moderation.  I still tried to stay away from certain foods.

Well as the month of January went by and now almost February I have completely gone back to my old ways.  I don’t eat it for any other reason besides…IT’S TASTY! It is also A LOT of work.  To constantly count calories and watch what I eat.  I have had a few things going on in my life, trying to make some money from home and now the move.  I couldn’t figure out how to be a mom, start my online business, do my chores, spend time with the kids and Tony, workout and sleep.

I chose the things that were important to me at that time.  I have maintained my weight and I am for the most part pleased about that.  One of the other things keeping me from eating well is that funds have been a little tight so I have not been able to get the healthy foods I would like to eat.

I vowed to myself, however, next week the move will be final, I have made some items to add to my Etsy and Ebay stores and we have money to stock the house with good foods.

So I don’t necessarily want to say March 1 I will start again because Monday and Tuesday and well Wednesday too will be hard to get my 6 small healthy meals in.  We will be moving, packing and driving.  So as soon as everything calms down I will get back on the “wagon”.  Back to working out and eating healthy.  I don’t want to take any diet pills because they always make me feel jittery.  I do think I will take some Super Cissus.  Basically it is supposed to help with joint pain.  I am getting old and sometimes just feel all my body in pain.  Working out sometimes intensifies it.

I am halfway to my goal.  I am going to set a smaller goal to hit sooner.  Basically cut in half what I have to lose, hit that goal and then go on.  I just think when I see the big picture and how much I have to lose, I get discouraged when I am losing the healthy 1-2 pounds a week.

So I will keep you updated.